From an email sent to Megan on Friday, April 15:
As we walked, Tina asked me when I was leaving. "Six weeks from
"Why?" I started talking. "It's difficult to say; I want to go
home, but I
don't want to. I don't want to stay here, but I want to. I've undertaken
so many things, but I've seen nothing come to closure. That makes it a
tough and frustrating job. Now maybe if I stay just another month something
will happen that will bear fruit; only I know that it won't. Things in the
academic world don't move like that. I'm reminded of Newton's first law:
Objects at rest tend to remain at rest. Universities here are at rest, and
getting them in motion to make a change is almost a super human effort. I
could extend for a year and still not see anythig done; I may be dead before
some of the seeds I've planted have matured." Someone has said that the US
Senate is the world's greatest deliberative body; that person may have been
a college graduate; they were never involved in the dynamics of a college.
When a college/universitiy faculty begins deliberating something, they can
make the US Senate look like a bunch of novices. I can't remember the
formula for overcoming the inertia of an object, but on a scale of zero to
one, overcoming the inertia of a university faculty is a coefficient of
"I'd like to stay; I'm anxious about leaving. What will I find when I get
home? For that matter, where will "home" be? This land is just
to be comfortable; at my age, I've got to start all over again? Tom has
talked about the difficulty of finding our house on his visits to Woodbury;
the landmarks are constantly changing. Last trip he was told to turn right
at an open field; six months later he can't find the corner; the open field
has been covered with a strip mall and 25 houses!
And I may have to become acclimated to a whole new environment.
"It still is the "Toughest job you'll ever love."
posted by Megan Harkness-Madole at 10:33 PM  |